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tantra and polyamory

one practitioner's working notes on how his tantric practice intercepts with his polyamorous world.

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past the myth · a tantric beginning

most of us come to tantra through a narrow door. western culture has done a thorough job of flattening one of the oldest and most sophisticated inner traditions in human history into something that fits on a retreat brochure.

antonio · jun 17, 2026 · 4 min read

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the tantric map · an introduction

i was reading chapter four of Lama Thubten Yeshe's Introduction to Tantra: The Transformation of Desire when i stopped and put it down.

antonio · the tantric map · jul 4, 2026 · 4 min read

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the tantric map - thoth

in tantric practice, the work isn't to stop feeling · it's to see clearly through what you're feeling. i found thoth in that space. the recorder of truth, the one who witnesses what is actually. that's the quality i keep returning to when the emotions are loud and the truth is quieter than i want it to be.

antonio · jul 5, 2026 · 4 min read

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the tantric map - osiris

the tantric map traces compassion through two traditions · Avalokiteshvara, the bodhisattva who delayed his own enlightenment to remain present for all who suffer, and osiris, reconstituted through loss, who holds the hearts of others because he knows what it is to be broken. both point at the same thing: the capacity to stay present with pain without needing to fix it.

antonio · jul 6, 2026 · 4 min read

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the tantric map - isis

the tantric map traces fierce protective action through isis and Vajrayogini · two traditions, one quality. protecting what you love isn't reactive. it's awake, organized, and constant. in romantic relationships it means tending the bond itself. in community it means being the one who sees a need and begins to move before anyone has to ask.

antonio · jul 7, 2026 · 4 min read

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the tantric map - ra

when something breaks in a relationship or in my community, my instinct is to get to the other side of it as fast as possible. this tantric map between Ra and Vajrasattva is teaching me something i didn't expect to need: how to stop moving. how to sit in the dark long enough for the morning that comes to actually mean something.

antonio · jul 8, 2026 · 4 min read

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the tantric map - set

when someone i love is struggling my first move is support. but when i see the same pattern returning · the one they named, the one they said they were working on · something shifts. wrathful clarity isn't cruelty. Set stands at the prow of Ra's barque every night fighting what would stop the dawn. the disruption is not the point. the dawn is the point.

antonio · jul 9, 2026 · 5 min read

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the tantric map - anubis

i don't sever bonds easily. my instinct is to find the form a relationship can still take rather than let it end completely. sitting with Anubis i've had to ask myself a harder question: is some of that fear? mastering death isn't about welcoming endings. it's about being fully present with them without needing them to be different than they are.

antonio · jul 10, 2026 · 5 min read

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the tantric map - what the map revealed

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antonio · jul 12, 2026 · 5 min read

the tantric map · the three states

i came to these slowly · through study, through loss, through having more than one romantic partner at a time. three practices that don’t resolve when you tend them. they intensify. this is where i am with all three.

antonio · jul 22, 2026 · 6 min read

the tantric map · when the body leads

an exploration of somatic movement as part of my ongoing tantric journey, and what happens when i stop trying to understand everything from the neck up. through grounding, guided movement, emotion, and flow, i'm learning to let the body participate in how i process, connect, and understand myself.

antonio · sep 7, 2026 · 5 min read